| More Bandwagon... Learn About me Biotch! |
[22 Dec 2004|01:48pm] |
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THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. alls im wearing are my rubberbands
2.
3.
THREE THINGS YOU HAVE BOUGHT RECENTLY:
1. SUbway
2. Cell phone Acc.
3. Spiced Pepsi
THREE THINGS ON YOUR DESK:
1. My Stero
2. My Pencils
3. My Korean Money
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
1. Friends
2. Emo/Screamo
3. Money
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. Love
2. Run Away
3. Find 2Pac
THREE GOOD WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1. Funny
2. Energetic
3. Clumsy
THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY:
1. my fingernails
2. my muscles
3. my eyes
THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY:
1. my feet
2. my nose
3. my hair
THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME:
1. Im actually smarter than you all think
2. I have the willpower to do it, but not the reason
3. I hate being alone.
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. w3rd
2. hahahaha
3. jew
THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO:
1. Aussie
2. Scottland
3. Ireland
THREE NAMES I GO BY:
1. TJ
2. T
3. Timmy
THREE SCREENNAMES I HAVE HAD:
1. Cant Save Tomorrow
2. Brokenev Ever After
3. My Broken Heart
THREE THINGS YOU WISH YOU NEVER DID:
1. stopped caring
2. stopped going to school
3. Grew up
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| Long time sorry |
[22 Dec 2004|01:39pm] |
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SOrry for not updating, I have been cleaning out my computers and restoring them and what not and just havent had time... so here is lifes update...
Well some things have happened and i always think about them, now you guys dont kno whwat im talking about, well some of you do, but some things happened and they make me feel so sick, sick to my stomach, sick like i wish i could be drunk and high all the time to try and feel normal, I kno people say that is no solution and they are right, im completely able to say no... but still when your in the state of mind nothing else matters and this hole is finally filled even if for just a few hours, and then that night i can atealst sleep. Im so tired of being a rag doll... i wont lie, i still lovee her and I always will, i told her i wasnt getting on my knees and crawling back to her but somehow we manage to start talking, i kno she doesnt want to be with me because things will be hard because all my friends (cept Karl) hate her for what shes done to me and i wont recap those, but then to top everything off this last decision she made (even though she was single) still hurts and people stil ldont agree with. Its her life and she can do what she wants, but it will still hurt me, which now leaves me to a fork in the road, do i turn left where i go to be with her and say to hell with you guys if you wont support me, turn right and say to hell with her and enjoy my friends, or go straight and have no idea what to do,...i think ive got cruise on right now and im just gonna head straight till the road makes me turn... life sucks, cant sleep, heart aches.
Ive set, myself up, for the greatest fall of all time.
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| what a day |
[17 Dec 2004|01:14am] |
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The silence of her voice... |
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So today I found out I dont have a heart....oh heart where art thou...oh wait nevermind i found it... its that hurting pain in the pit of my stomach
I wish I could condem love to hell.
"Love is just another way to say heartache."
There is a word for everything in the English Language except for how I feel.
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| Wow... life is crazy |
[12 Dec 2004|10:23am] |
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Funny how when I try to turn things around the worst of it happens to me... here is my life... for the better still i hope...
1. Judge never told me to go to Traffic Survival school when i went to court
2. Thus my licnese is suspended till March 5th.
3. I am being put at fault for my car being totaled
4. The other party is suing me.
Positives out of it all
1. I get off groundation early...Dec 18th which means im off for my 18th b day.
2. My parents and I are really close again, were sticking together thru this all
3. I dont mind being at home anymore, I dont hate it
4. Realization that life is hard but its easy when you have people to share it with.
Last note:
*Mrs Right, who ever you are, come and knock down my door...you may not be perfect but together we can b perfect, and I use the word perfect for lack of a better word.
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| So life is good, tough yet good |
[08 Dec 2004|08:27pm] |
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Well here is my status for all of you who dont kno and might just be interested in finding out...
Parents : Building my relationship with them again...#1 Priority
School : Bringing grades up, doing homework all night after work so that I wont fail my senior year
Girls : Still not looking for the next love of my life
Friends : Still love ya guys ta death
Spare time : Built a PC...damn good one too
Futre Plans : Play more guitar, make more websites, become smater...
Goal of the week : Dont Fuck Anything Up.
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| woohoo |
[06 Dec 2004|11:01pm] |
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Day one has been sucessful. Nothing bad today.
sXe
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[05 Dec 2004|10:02pm] |
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Why cant I do anything right.
Im so done.
Worst feeling ever: "We used to hold you so high, now we've droped our standards in hopes that you'll just graduate."
Push me and I will fall.
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| My Song |
[01 Dec 2004|11:35pm] |
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Matchbook Romance - Tiger Lily |
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Here is my song....
Titled : Life
Written by : ME!
The stars are not out tonight
Their still hiding, their broken lights
Their shattered dreams in the sky
Heres the story of my life
Trying to figure out how to live my life
Trying to figure out what is wrong from right
Trying to figure out what the f*** is wrong
Trying to remember the words to your song
Beauty lies in your eyes
You broke me down to my demise
Youd trickle down my faithful spine
and destroy me from inside
Trying to figure out how to live my life
Trying to figure out what is wrong from right
Trying to figure out what the f*** is wrong
Trying to remember the words to your song
[Interlude - SPOKEN]
This is for those
Who've loved and lost
Who've been faithful
but their partners not
For those who've lost
their heart in shame
and are only remembered
by their first name
eh, ill post others too now when i get not so lazy...
.Forget My Name.
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| GOD DAMMIT |
[30 Nov 2004|11:16pm] |
DAMMIT IM PISSED OFFFF EVERYONE CEPT ME AND KARL ARE HAPPY WHAT THE FUCK, I HATE ALL YOU COUPLES.
im done.
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| Im actually very curious... |
[30 Nov 2004|04:10pm] |
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1. Give me your number?
2. Have sex with me?
3. Let me kiss you?
4. Watch a movie with me...even a really horribly morbid one?
5. Let me take you out to dinner?
6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. Take a shower with me?
8. Be my bf/gf?
9. Have a fling with me?
10. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
11. Buy me a drink if i didnt have money?
12. Take me home for the night?
13. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
14. Sing car karaoke w/ me?
15. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
16. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
17. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
18. Do you think im pretty, beautiful, or hot?
19. Do you like my style?
20. Do you think im funny?
21. Do you care about me?
22. Would you cry if i died?
23. Would you stop me if i tried to commit suicide?
24. Would you dance with me?
25. Would you sing happy birthday to me?
26. Would you help me at a party as im throwing up due to intoxication?
(Rig added these)
27. learn to play the bass for my band cause u love me?
28. grab the headboard for me?
29. write a song about me?
30. fall in love with me?
31. drive to canada with me?
33 go to viva with me?
34. change religions for me?
35. love to wake up next to me?
32. (i forgot this one apperently) Write a book about ur childhood and put me in it?
I added these
36. pay me for sex
37. break my heart
38. whisper sweet nothings in my ear
39. watch me play soccer
40. tell me our bands good even tho were not
41. watch the boondock saints with me
42. be my princess?
43. be my everything?
44. did u just tell me the thruth about everything?
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| What a fucking weekend... |
[25 Nov 2004|01:30pm] |
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Well jesus christ... i thought it was bad enough that I had to go to court on wednesday but to top it all off i also got my car totaled. I was going to phx for the Yellowcard concert when some crazy ass guy merged into my lane driving me off the road then we hit eachother and he flipped his car and totaled it too. They got send to the hospital and me bry and NK were okay but my car is gone now...i cant beleive it, I kno I have a purpose now because i left without a scratch and these other two guys in the other car were sent to ICU. I dont know why things happen the way they do but this time its a sign, and ive realized...we cant all live forever so
"Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today." - James Dean
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| well now... |
[23 Nov 2004|12:05am] |
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I dont know what to say so this will be one of those posts where i just say hey, everyone tell me what you think about me, Pros Cons, etc... let me kno right now :)
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| Not one fucking day! |
[17 Nov 2004|08:21pm] |
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I cant get through one fucking day without getting pissed off beyond beleif anymore, no wonder i drink myself stupid all the time... shit i come home and get yelled at because i wrote my checkbook in PEN! WHAT THE FUCK! I hate my fuckin parents and cant wait till i can leave, i mean shit i actually had a good day until i got home, fuck this place, second off i fucking hate girls, all of them!!! Im so fucking confused!!! Im scared and hurt and dont wanna get fucked over and the ones that fuck me over arent even ones im talking to they're the ones that are my friends or supposed to be! JESUS! Alls i want to do is have one great friend thats a girl, someone i can talk to about anything when my guy friends wont judge me, I FUCKING HATE LIFE.
I hope i die tonite, so that i wont have to see another tomorrow.
I hope tomorrow never comes.
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| Another survey....Something to do with my time, learn something biatch! |
[15 Nov 2004|06:24pm] |
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1. name: TJ
2. single or taken: neither
3. sex: ima penis
4. birthday: christmas eve
5. Zodiac sign: caprithing
6. siblings: yea i guess
7. hair color: brownish blackish? depends on dry or wet
8. eye color: green and brown, not hazel
9. shoe size: 10 and a half to 11
10. height: 6'1
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
1. who are your best friends? they already know
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yea 4, rigel matt karl and gonzo...they are both boyfriends and girlfriends depending on the role they want to play for the nite
1. any tattoos or piercings: shouldnt this be a 3? and not yet
s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?: occasionaly
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: Perts
3. what are you most scared of?: Lonelyness
5. who is the last person that called you?: My dad
6. where do you want to get married?: ona beach, small wedding, closest freidns only
7. how many buddies are online right now?: 24
8. what would you change about yourself?: id play the piano
f a v o r i t e s
1. color: blue
2. food: chinese
3. boys names: Tristen, Asher, Connor
4. girls names: kristyn, krystal, i like 'k' names
5. subjects in school: history, math
6. animals: unicorns
7. sports: soccer
h a v e y o u e v e r
1. smoked?: yep
2. bungee jumped?: not the kind ur thinkin of
3. made yourself throw up?: eh a few times
4. skinny dipped?: not yet
5: ever been in love?: i wish i hadnt
6. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: gotta learn that trick
7. pictured your crush naked?: dont have one :(
8. actually seen your crush naked?: GOD DAMMIT STOP RUBBING IT IN!
9. cried when someone died?: my great grandpa and the elephant from the old HBO show
10. lied: to get out of truoble
11. fallen for your best friend?: i take the 5th
12. been rejected?: me no never...
13. rejected someone?: once again i plead the 5th
14. used someone?: define used...
15. done something you regret?: lost my relationship with my parents
make-up: not on me
smell: Lucky for Girls
favorite movie: Boondock Saints
book you're reading: gotta learn to do that
in cd player: my mix and the sth demo
in dvd player: no clue
color of toenails: all natural baby!
l a s t p e r s o n
you hugged: i cnat remember
you imed: jojo
you yelled at: ryan?
you kissed: no idea
a r e y o u
understanding: sometimes
open-minded: way too much
arrogant: a lil bit
insecure: yep
interesting: yep
random: yep
hungry: yep
smart: yep
moody: not a whole lot
organized: yep
difficult: yep
attractive: maybe
messy: yep
obsessed: im TOTALLY OBSESSED
R A N D O M
In the morning i am: whens morning?
all i need is: love
i dream about: random stuff
o p p o s i t e s e x
what do you notice first: if the legs arent showing the feet and if those arent showing then eyes
last person you slow danced with: i cant remember
worst question to ask: what size are those?
makes you smile: love
Who has a crush on you: if i knew id be with them and not this damn survey
d o y o u e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: yep
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: id have boobies wouldnt i
wish you were younger: yea, i miss those days
cried because someone said something to you?: not that i can remember
N u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: not times, im still on the first one
of hearts i have broken: i dont kno they dont tell me
of guys ive kissed: hah like 2
of girls ive kissed: way to many
of continents i have lived in: 2
of tight friends: cant count that high, dont have enough fingers and toes
of cds i own: legally?
of scars on my body: just the ones on my heart, ohh and my arm
F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s
1. do you believe in God? not anymore
2. what was the last film you saw at the movies?: The Grudge
3. favorite disney movie?: Aladin
4. what did you have for breakfast this morning?: Subway
5. who would you love being locked in a room with?: Buddah
6. could you live without your computer?: nope
7. would you color your hair?: yep
8. habla espanol?: si, hablo espanol muy bien
9. what does your room look like?: blue, spoiled
are you sarcastic?: no never u dumb shit survey!
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[14 Nov 2004|10:45pm] |
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In the last 24 hours, have you:
[Cried?]: no
[Bought something?]: food
[Gotten sick]: no
[Sang?]: always
[Been kissed?]:yep
[Felt stupid?]: always
[Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't?]: nope
[Met someone new?]: yep
[Moved on?]: hopefully
[Talked to someone you have a crush on?]: is it called a crush these days
[Had a serious talk?]: yep
[Hugged someone?]: yes
[Fought with your parents?]: i dont have parents
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| I think i might just have... |
[12 Nov 2004|06:31pm] |
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I think i might just have finally found happiness, today was great, REALLY great! and thanks chels vass... u might have just made my life | | That much better!
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| This is me |
[12 Nov 2004|12:43am] |
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and this is me updaing,
any questions?
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| When the sky falls, where do i run? |
[09 Nov 2004|12:05am] |
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DEPRESSED...yea, life still sucks, still hate it, dont know what im gonna do, want to get away...far far away.... dont want to leave my friends.... heres the low down, my parents suck, i want to go to a shrink and get anti-depressant pills, im to busy for my friends kuz of stupid fucking work, but i have to work so i can pay them back but then i get stupid ass tickets for driving...this blows, mucho cock. i hate life. i really wish id die in my sleep. the only good thing about life is well, uh...the friends i have but never see....
EVERYONE FUCK OFF AND DIE
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[07 Nov 2004|11:24pm] |
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what a great word, it describes so much, my weekend was FUCKing gay, and my life, well i just dont give a flying FUCK. I hope i die, not like a painful death, but a natural one... if i dont wake up i wont mind. Here is my Will in advance :
Rigel: My Fender Showmaster
Matt: My Ibanez Acu/Elec
Karl: My Laptop
Gonzo: My Skateboards
Bryant: My Car
Everyone Else: What ever else is left to take
.Forget My Name.
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